Forgivness

I was hoping one day as I was growing up that my mom would find us and also my dad. When I fifteen I always wondered what It would be like if they did find us or how my adopted parents would feel if they did. Because I never really hated them as I was growing up no matter what had happened in the past I still love them. Even though my adopted mom was hurt when I do not feel that I should hold grudge against mother and or even my dad. I hard that you have to forgive and forgot beside the future is all matter or now or future is up to us.
But there is only one person that I feel that I can't forgive is my mom ex. husband Marshall. because of what he has done and other things that is unthinkable that you would do to a child. I am not really going say to much about what had happened because its to painful to think about. How do you forgive someone who has done horrible thing to you, and someone you want nothing to do with? But I'm glad my mom finally left him for good.
When my mom found us she said that she only went to the store and didn't leave us there for very long. But when I was growing up I had been told so many stories that I don't know what to really believe. Should I believe my real mom or should I believe the stories that I had been told, while I was growing up. these are the things that I have thought about growing up so how could I possible stay mad at her? So when she did find us I was ok with it the fact that she did found us. I even had a dream that she had found us when I was about sixteen years old and know it happened that she did. I guess I have always want her to be part of my life and the same for my dad. My dad will always be in my heart even though he is gone but I'll always love him.